i hope i can forgive me for having the nerve to exist

[johannamason]

Let's practice this voice without being overly hostile to all the nice New Moorians.

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[johannamason]

I didn't even do anything and now none of it matters.

[johannamason]

There wasn't even a point to me surviving, was there? Whoever made this up really can't do anything right.

[johannamason]

I couldn't even die there.

[johannamason]

It doesn't matter. We'll get out of this place or I'll die here. Different place, same story. People are the same everywhere.

[johannamason]

I'm sure the New Moore Hunger Games are just a few weeks away.

[johannamason]

Except Finnick, he's different- got something above his neck here.

[johannamason]

They're trying to trick us, just like the Capitol lied to us.

[johannamason]

It wasn't imaginary, all of it was real.

[johannamason]

I killed those Tributes.

[johannamason]

I let them kill Dad and Eilona and the baby.

[johannamason]

I let Bachur die.

[johannamason]

I sliced the tracker out of a brainless girl's arm.

[johannamason]

I didn't tell them anything about the plan or District 13, ad I didn't forget what was real then and I won't now.

[johannamason]

I did just as well as Katniss ever did, rain or not.

[johannamason]

I forgot what was real when it mattered and got left behind.

[johannamason]

Her gift fell apart after four months, so I went back to make my own.

[johannamason]

Then I woke up here. Real or not?

[pelagically]

Real— to us, not them.

[johannamason]

I guess you're gonna say that makes it matter more?

[pelagically]

No. Just playing an old game.

[johannamason]

Yeah, well it got less fun after a while.

[pelagically]

Right? I mean, they killed me, what were they thinking.

[johannamason]

How tasty it would be to eat the skin off your cheekbones, probably. Think you left behind a pretty set of bones too?

[pelagically]

No cannibalism allowed, Johanna, remember?

[johannamason]

I wasn't thinking it! I meant the things that finished you off.

[pelagically]

Sure you weren't! You know, that's what my last wish probably was, to be a great meal for Mutts.

[johannamason]

Better choice than see your son, I guess.

[pelagically]

So it was a boy.

[pelagically]

Well aren't you going to be full of great news for me.

[johannamason]

Not really, I hate babies. Not too fond of Annie without you around either.

[pelagically]

You hate babies? I didn't see that coming. Full of surprises, Johanna!

[johannamason]

And I bet they love you almost as much as the rest of the world.

[pelagically]

Well, I guess now it's just a matter of seeing if New Moore will love me too.

[johannamason]

You want more of the rich and horny to love you? Though you'd had you fill of that.

[pelagically]

Eugh, no, I just want to be more popular than you. I'm aiming low.

[johannamason]

Everyone's more popular than me. I made sure of that.

[pelagically]

I bet that was really hard for you to do.

[johannamason]

Oh yeah, I was the most popular girl in District 7 before the Games.

[pelagically]

I bet the trees liked you!

[johannamason]

Not really.