i was growing into an adult before i stopped halfway and gave up

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I'm seriously becoming a crazy person. Okay, this is a spot for me to make some comments about Cordelia, because she talks too fucking much in ID and I think it's because I have a lot of stuff I want to say about her.

Comments

[paragonish.livejournal.com]

so you've not yet picked up on the part where he hates himself...

ah, indulge me. why do you think he hangs out with you~?

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I don't think he knows how to tell people 'no'.

[paragonish.livejournal.com]

that too.

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God, no, like. That's how it started, but we're really friends now, okay? I'm not an idiot, I know I'm not like, FORCING him to hang out with me.

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I realized it when he showed up on Valentine's day that he wasn't just around cause I was making him to it.

[paragonish.livejournal.com]

so what do you think it is, then? \o/

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Well. What do you mean, we're friends, aren't we?

[paragonish.livejournal.com]

I'm used to quizzing the boys about each others' ulterior motives is all. GOOD ANSWER. you do realize how important you are to him, right? and like the only healthy friendship he has?

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Stabbing aside, Andrew is pretty healthy?

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And I know she's like a fetus but Kaitlyn isn't really dangerous to him.

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I just don't know how healthy it is if I'm getting him beat up all the time. It's like high school again, only I have all this annoying guilt!

[paragonish.livejournal.com]

well you're pretty much one of two people who consistently makes him feel like he's idk actually worthwhile, so. and he's not gotten beaten up yet! and anyway that's just how J&W function, you'll get used to it.

yeah, how's that conscience working out for you.

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It sucks cause I feel bad when things don't go exactly how I want for him. Like. he hasn't been the luckiest person. I mean, hello, none of us have, but yeah. I just want everything to go perfect for him, forever. ugh is that weird?

[paragonish.livejournal.com]

it's not. he's like a puppy in that way. ♥ and anyway it goes both ways.

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But everything is perfect for Cordelia!!

[paragonish.livejournal.com]

lies you tell yourself much?

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Well. Not dying or having dead friends or having a thigh that's still black and blue? Besides all of that things are pretty good.

[paragonish.livejournal.com]

yeah well see, to him those things count. epically.

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I live in a fancy hotel where I don't have to foot the bill and I've got two guys who care a lot about me. I'm trying not to be greedy here, okay?