Pick a character of mine, then go here to generate 5 random numbers between 1 & 100. comment with the character name and the five numbers, and I'll answer the five corresponding questions from this list.
I'm supposed to be more open with my feelings. I thought I was an open book before, but apparently the therapists think I'm "holding back". Nobody ever gets past the whole lying champion shtick. Everybody figures I've got some hidden depth cause they thought I was some crybaby loser. Why can't this just be the real me?
8. To which social class do you belong?
A low one? I don't know, whatever being a Victor makes you, some kind of murderer turned celebrity turned rebel turned nothing.
89. Are you generally organized or messy?
I don't have enough stuff to be messy, but back before.. Messy? I guess, I didn't really care about keeping things really tidy or whatever. When somebody's like my dad was there's better stuff I should've been doing. I guess I can keep thoughts organized but I'm not into like, cleaning stuff up.
60. How close are you to your family?
They're dead now, but I don't know. Not much. I don't remember my mom that much and Levi wasn't any closer to me than anybody else. Bachur and I never got along and even if I thought he was smart sometimes he screwed up enough. Killing yourself doesn't make all the dumb stuff you did magically okay.
I did so much for my dad and he barely even looked at me. So no. I wasn't close to anybody and nobody ever liked me. So what?
52 Who or what, if anything, would you die for (or otherwise go to extremes for)?
No one. I mean, that's the point, isn't it? If we want to be free then we can't have those people. I guess if she was doing something really stupid or it looked like everything we worked for would get messed up, I'd take a bullet for Katniss. That sounds more heroic than it actually is, it's not because I care about her. She's just more important than me.
51. Is there anything you absolutely refuse to do under any circumstances? Why do you refuse to do it?
Fucking people for secrets? I don't do things I don't want to. Why is that so hard for people to figure out? Why would I spend all that time killing people with my bare hands just to let some guy fuck my throat? People like Finnick probably see it like punishment or something, but I don't care. All of those kids would've killed me too. Simon would've cut out my throat, someone else would've drown me or watched me choke on my own blood, so what does it matter what I did? I wanted to win, so I won. I don't want to sleep with losers so I didn't. Whatever happened after that is Snow's doing, it's the Capitol playing with me after I got out. So who cares.
59. What do you look for in a potential lover?
What kinda question is this. Somebody strong. Someone who knows when I want to be alone which is honestly all the time lately, so what's even the point of asking? Somebody who doesn't expect things out of me. Someone who doesn't want kids. Someone who doesn't feel sorry for me or try to make me feel safe or know that I'm loved or whatever. Someone I never need to tell anything to and who never tries to tell me anything I don't want to hear.
Clearly someone who doesn't exist.
98. What three words best describe your personality?
"Nobody likes me"? "Not very great"? "Actually not crazy"! I could do this all day.
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JOHANNA (yes i'm giving her two sets)
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72 51 59 98 42
Re: JOHANNA (yes i'm giving her two sets)
I'm supposed to be more open with my feelings. I thought I was an open book before, but apparently the therapists think I'm "holding back". Nobody ever gets past the whole lying champion shtick. Everybody figures I've got some hidden depth cause they thought I was some crybaby loser. Why can't this just be the real me?
8. To which social class do you belong?
A low one? I don't know, whatever being a Victor makes you, some kind of murderer turned celebrity turned rebel turned nothing.
89. Are you generally organized or messy?
I don't have enough stuff to be messy, but back before.. Messy? I guess, I didn't really care about keeping things really tidy or whatever. When somebody's like my dad was there's better stuff I should've been doing. I guess I can keep thoughts organized but I'm not into like, cleaning stuff up.
60. How close are you to your family?
They're dead now, but I don't know. Not much. I don't remember my mom that much and Levi wasn't any closer to me than anybody else. Bachur and I never got along and even if I thought he was smart sometimes he screwed up enough. Killing yourself doesn't make all the dumb stuff you did magically okay.
I did so much for my dad and he barely even looked at me. So no. I wasn't close to anybody and nobody ever liked me. So what?
52 Who or what, if anything, would you die for (or otherwise go to extremes for)?
No one. I mean, that's the point, isn't it? If we want to be free then we can't have those people. I guess if she was doing something really stupid or it looked like everything we worked for would get messed up, I'd take a bullet for Katniss. That sounds more heroic than it actually is, it's not because I care about her. She's just more important than me.
Re: JOHANNA (yes i'm giving her two sets)
I don't know. Green. Brown. Yellow- who cares?
51. Is there anything you absolutely refuse to do under any circumstances? Why do you refuse to do it?
Fucking people for secrets? I don't do things I don't want to. Why is that so hard for people to figure out? Why would I spend all that time killing people with my bare hands just to let some guy fuck my throat? People like Finnick probably see it like punishment or something, but I don't care. All of those kids would've killed me too. Simon would've cut out my throat, someone else would've drown me or watched me choke on my own blood, so what does it matter what I did? I wanted to win, so I won. I don't want to sleep with losers so I didn't. Whatever happened after that is Snow's doing, it's the Capitol playing with me after I got out. So who cares.
59. What do you look for in a potential lover?
What kinda question is this. Somebody strong. Someone who knows when I want to be alone which is honestly all the time lately, so what's even the point of asking? Somebody who doesn't expect things out of me. Someone who doesn't want kids. Someone who doesn't feel sorry for me or try to make me feel safe or know that I'm loved or whatever. Someone I never need to tell anything to and who never tries to tell me anything I don't want to hear.
Clearly someone who doesn't exist.
98. What three words best describe your personality?
"Nobody likes me"? "Not very great"? "Actually not crazy"! I could do this all day.
42. What are your religious views?
I don't know what this is.