i was growing into an adult before i stopped halfway and gave up

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I'm seriously becoming a crazy person. Okay, this is a spot for me to make some comments about Cordelia, because she talks too fucking much in ID and I think it's because I have a lot of stuff I want to say about her.

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god okay this is going to sound pathetic, but nobody here likes me except for Angel and Jonathan.

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Like don't even pretend its not like that, because it is.

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So like, sorry Babylon that I don't like being humiliated on Valentine's day and sorry maybe I like, don't keep all your secrets and sorry I don't freaking cook for you like your goddamn mom, okay?

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And I'm fine with that, whatever. I know part of it is because of the kind of person I was in high school and god, if you can't get over that then I don't even want to waste my time.

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But I just everyone I know from LA would hurry up and get here!

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I'm tired of everybody hating me.

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It's exhausting.

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UPDATE!! Maybe it's better if it stays that way!

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I just feel like I shouldn't have bothered.

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Which is probably like, totally true.

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I don't know, okay. Jonathan wants his nerds back and I want him not to pout so much so I figured "Oh, yeah, there's no way THIS could've gone wrong."

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Like. I get he probably didn't mean for it to sound that dickish. I mean, it;s Jonathan. The day he says something mildly threatening to anyone will be the day like.

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I was actually gonna say "the day Angel goes outside during the day" but I guess that's like, today, huh.

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God, whatever.

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I think I'm just gonna. Keep my distance for a while.

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I know Angel made the situation with Warren a lot worse, so anyway, the best thing for me to do is to let Jonathan handle this.

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I can't believe he told Buffy.

[paragonish.livejournal.com]

it was valiant effort and kind of really sweet, that's why he doesn't blame you.

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In hindsight, maybe less appletinis would've made the whole thing more successful. Or more roleplaying GOD that was painful.

[paragonish.livejournal.com]

the alcohol to chainmail bikini-wearing elven princess ratio is kind of hard to figure out, yeah.

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There was so much math!! It was like the most mentally taxing thing I've done all week.

[paragonish.livejournal.com]

THE THINGS THESE NERDS DO FOR FUN!

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I should stop making everything about me.

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Maybe I like the attention?

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That's so messed up.