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[squidissension]

Since we didn't get enough of it-
Use this post to play with the troll ancestors and normal aged trolls or kids here in this post.
all dudes and dudettes welcome, honestly, bring in whoever.

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[riseup]

it just kind of bums me out.

[ihateyouetc]

you're correct. they are 9iven an identity throu9h a si9n and the color of their 6lood.
our eyes don't reveal our 6lood colors till we're older. 6efore that, they're 9ray. as wri99lers, you wouldn't normally notice, 6ut all of them are tau9ht this the same: "you are here. this is who is a6ove you. this is who is 6elow you."

[ihateyouetc]

with those differences hidden the way they are, it seems like it shouldn't matter for those who are youn9, yet it does. they're tau9ht it's crucial for them to know their place.
i was not tau9ht this 6ecause my custodian didn't 6elieve i was worth less than others
and i came into her care 6ecause i wasn't on the hemospectrum. thus, the lowest.
she was not a low6lood. the risk she took for me was lar9e.

[ihateyouetc]

as 9loomy as this topic is, you shouldn't worry.
the more i hear a6out those who come after us
the more i'm certain it will 6e as it should 6e.
not ri9ht away, 6ut pro9ress is what matters.
althou9h it may just 6e me hopin9, i think it sounds like
even thou9h it never felt like it 6ack then
and sometimes may not seem so now
perhaps those of us who came 6efore them finally did it right
and 9ave them a chance to succeed where we all failed.

[riseup]

you are right.

[riseup]

even though it is easy to get bummed out about this stuff, i try not to think about it too much.
because i really do believe that it will all be ok.
we may have to do some things along the way that aren't easy or aren't considered good, but in the end, everything is going to work out.

[riseup]

which i guess is what leads me to my next question.
you said that you failed...
did you and eridan's dumbass ancestor and scary not-aradia and everyone else play the game too?

[riseup]

you don't have to answer that if that is considered me cheating.

[ihateyouetc]

you're very 9uick.
if it is cheatin9, i've little care for that rule
6ut i feel there is a reason aside from "i was curious" that you're askin9.

[riseup]

my friends and i are playing too.
or we were playing, i guess.
i'm just trying to wrap my head around the paradox space shenanigans going on right now.

[ihateyouetc]

final answer?

[riseup]

oh jeez, i really feel like i should not go down this road!!!

[ihateyouetc]

6ecause you feel that way, i must ask: are you still interested?

[riseup]

so you
or someone
caused the scratch, right?

[riseup]

i mean, you had to have.

[riseup]

right?

[ihateyouetc]

i must also ask in advance you for9ive my very unspecific answers
as you understand the nature of what you're askin9
i'm sure you also understand my memory is very unclear.

[ihateyouetc]

you're correct.
who or how, i don't remem6er, 6ut it happened.
after that point our universe ceased to exist
and i was the only one who remem6ered it existed at all.
durin9 my life, i didn't know what those memories were
they were confusin9.
this period afterward has clarified thin9s for me
and i feel calmer a6out what happened
6ut i'm afraid what i know now still ultimately tells me nothin9.

[ihateyouetc]

does the answer fri9hten you?

[riseup]

not really. it has to happen.
maybe a little bit, but it's a selfish fear, and i can't be selfish about this.
i guess it does not matter anyway, considering where i am?
but it's good to know.

[riseup]

i wonder why you remembered.

[ihateyouetc]

please for9ive the handmaid
her life has 6een lon9 and painful.

[riseup]

it's ok, i am sure she has her reasons.
i just don't want whatever happened to her to happen to aradia.
that is probably not how it works, i know, but...
i don't want any of what happened to you guys to happen to my friends.

[ihateyouetc]

from what i have seen and heard of your friends
i 6elieve you'll find the opposite will likely happen.

[riseup]

i really hope so.
thank you.